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Wednesday, January 15, 2003

...denounce the evils of truth and love...

Yes, oh yes, everyone hates us now for the fact that we recited the Team Rocket poem today in English. But it's so fun!

To protect the world from devestation
to unite all peoples within our nation
to denounce the evils of truth and love
to extend our reach to the starts above
Team Rocket blast off at the speed of light
surrender now or prepare to fight
Meowth that's right!

Well anyway, now that you are completely convinced of my stupidity, time for more. I don't get what I'm doing wrong. But I know it's something. I'm praying to the ceiling that it was just a bad day. Let this just be a bad day. It was so crappy that I wish it didn't happen. I wish I had had one less day in my life so that this one never existed. Because today I realized that I'm losing it. I'm losing the grip I once had. It's going, and I don't know how to stop it. I think I need to put more effort, like I did at the beginning. When I was still scared. When I was so vulnerable. I have to put my shield up to block what could be coming. I will try. I'm running out of ideas. There's only so many things that one can do that are funny or interesting. I only have so many stories. I only have so much I can do before I stop. I'm running out. Feed more to me. Before it goes away. Or maybe it was just a bad day. And that is what I hope, because I want to be back in the time where my reality is better than my dreams or my hopes. I want to be back in dreamland.

mo posted at 5:42 PM.