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Tuesday, March 25, 2003

...oggle, kiss, water, death...

Above is my description of the movie Titanic. I watched threeee James Cameron films within the last week or two, of course, not Titanic, which sucks. They were Terminator, Terminator 2, and The Abyss. Terminator and T2 were very good, and I was highly entertained by them, and also I am waiting in anticipation for T3, which is I hope as good as the first two. Then The Abyss... was... *interesting*. It was like, too many genres in one. It had the following::

-Hurricane movie (i.e. The Perfect Storm, etc)
-Underwater Scuba/Exploration Movie
-Psycho with nuclear warhead movie
-Army/Navy movie
-Alien movie
-Love story

So I wouldnt' exactly reccommend it, but it was entertaining nonetheless.

I have taken up a new hobby of reading the blogs of people who are American but live in Japan. My favorite is, which I found through the famous/infamous "Where is Raed?" blog. I find it amusing that there is so much debate over this. I don't know whether I believe it's real or not, but I don't think the fact that he has such good english is reason enough to disbelieve it...

I also love the way the media can't lie as much as they used to about obvious facts. They first claimed that there were no prisoners of war, but various Arab television stations have the prisoners of war all over the screen. So not everything can be concealed.

The damn phone keeps ringing. I'm not picking it up. I don't care who it is, if they call this much, toooooooooooooo bad.

You know who are annoying? People. Don't think this is a depressed-teen-suicidal blog or anything, I'm perfectly content with my life as of now, or as content as most people are, but people just annoy the hell out of me. I looked through the yearbook of last year and I realized that I definitely despised at least 80% of the people there. I don't really think this is entirely my fault. I may be predisposed to hating everyone, but I'm sure there are places in the world where I would be better or worse. For example, I would be worse off in a preppy town, no multiculturalism (if the mono"culture" was american). There I would be particularly dissatisfied. Maybe in a different town I would be happy, or a different country altogether. Obviously everyone knows my number one choice of countries, but I even think at least Canada or some European country might be a little less annoying. I wouldn't mind being a foreigner, I don't think.

I think the fact that I despise everyone is starting to interfere with my social life. I don't really want to do anything with anyone, because I'd rather just sit at home watching Terminator and eating chinese food than be with my friends. Anti-socialism seems to be much less annoying than being social. I think my new policy is that the only way I'm going to be social is anti-social. What I mean by this is that anyone who wants to hang out with me has to come to me. I don't think that I'm some kind of godly creature or something, depsite my psychic powers (don't ask), but if they aren't willing to approach me, I'm better off alone. This could be taken backwards as well, but see, if I don't have anyone, I'm just fine too. I had one person I needed (or at least needed enough to approach) and now that he's been taken away, I can't think of anyone worth my time. No offense to all my friends, it's not that I dont' like you (because I probably love hanging out with most of you, as long as you're not like, a total loser) but I'm sick of making effort.

I guess everyone is gonna think I'm just upset about Nobu, which obvoiusly I am. Even without the "boyfriend" stuff I still had a friend. Pshhhhhh and no one cares. Actualy I'm sure people care, about me being sad or whatever, but obviously not enough to keep him around.

So now that I have few friends and everything, I need to accomplish some stuff in my life. I need my own projects. I have constant projects of learning Japanese, getting better at cello, etc, but those take quite long periods of time. I need smaller ones as well, like, a few weeks, and then I have my daily or hourly projects. That's how I function, in projects of different sizes.

I have a few week project that I can start during spring break, and if I follow through on it, I might even comment on it here when I'm done. If it falls through, too bad.

Oh yes, and for all of you Japanese students out there who read my blog (I guess just YSM) I have a link:
We have to show this to Peaches on Monday



mo posted at 4:21 PM.